The development of my artwork centers around an early experience of loss, its subsequent effects on my identity, and the pleasurable, habitual behavior to control objects. Inspired by conventional feminine forms, I re-interpret patterns of lace or clusters of flowers into fragmented, melancholic and sometimes menacing faces. This repetitive manipulation of the “fetishistic” object allows me to feel in control of the object, thereby controlling its intangible and ambiguous qualities. However, this power is only temporary. In the end, the fetish is revealed in its true nature acting as a memorial, indicating the point of loss, which it both masks and replaces.